I have another blog. Did you know that? It’s one I’ve kept since high school. I posted things there in the beginning purely for me- no one read it. Then a year or so ago a bunch of my friends started blogging and suddenly I had a small audience. Anyway, I tell you that because I don’t know how much longer I will update this one and if you for some reason are interested in my babble-ings you can find about all you could handle here.
Like today I wrote a little something about how much I love rain:
“I love rain. It has been raining for a week straight in Atlanta and is currently coming down its hardest yet. I understand that enjoying rain puts me in a very small minority. Don’t ask me why I love it.. I have no clue. But there is just something so encouraging, inspiring, and motivating about it to me. I makes me want to do things that deep down I want but never actually do. It makes me want to be better. Again, I have no idea.”
See? Random stuff. (Though most of it isn’t quite that trivial)
On a more serious note (since we all love serious).. I had a wresting match with God last night. Probably the most dialog I’ve had with Him in a while. Looking back at it now I just have to laugh at the irony of it. Because at the core of the conversation was the question of His existence. Haha! I was arguing with God about whether He existed or not! I am so thankful for His fatherly patience. Can you imagine if someone started an argument with you over your existence? How long would you humor them until you gave up and wrote them off as a lunatic? But despite how ridiculous it was, it proved to be more emotional than I expected. It was the first time in a while that I expressed so much frustration towards God. I ended up in tears over a subject of tenderness that I’ve struggled with for the past couple of years. I later concluded that God knows a lot more than I ever will, He loves me much more than I can understand, and innocent trust in that kind of father is the greatest feeling I could ever ask for.
Thank you God for always pursuing my reckless heart.
JK
Wrestling is good! Thanx for sharing your thoughts Jade. You are a fantastic writer!